I want to start an educational publishing company. I want to make 350,000 a year... enough to hire my sister and enough to contract illustrators and marketing people. Enough to hire my mom.
This is my dream as I sit here tonight...completely stressed out. Grades are due tomorrow and I HATE grades. Everyone, the kids, their parents, they get so serious about grades and I am like I wish I could just make some grades up so everybody could be happy.
I am sooooooooooooo tired of teaching. And I feel like I am being ungrateful because I have a job. But I HAAAAATE this job. It is like I am in an abusive relationship. There are some "good" parts, but my mind is so warped.
I spent hours upon hours putting in grades and checking assignments. I had to take a sick day so I could catch up on work. I am still not done. ARGHHH!!! I went to Chick Filet today and on my way there I just howled and cried.
I have some student who are just MEAN and the sight of them stresses me out. It makes my chest hurt. I get so tired of dealing with them day in and day out.
I am sooooooo tired of being in charge of classrooms full of teenagers. I feel like someone left a crying baby in my lap and I can't leave. If feel so trapped, like I am in a fish tank and I want to swim in the ocean.
I wish my husband believed in my dream and would let me quit. I know he thinks its just a pipe dream.
I keep thinking about all of the hours I dedicated to this job today. What if I had dedicated it to my company. ARGHHHHH. SCREAM!!!
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