I resigned today...

This morning, as I was leaving for work, I told my husband with my resignation letter in hand..."I am going to really do it."  He held me in his arms and said "We've got this."

Two Roads

Two roads diverged in a woods and I took the road less traveled and that has made all the difference...

This is not easy, leaving a career of almost nine years.  And I don't know who I am if I am not a teacher.  And I don't know what I will do if I don't teach.

I don't know what I am going to do about health insurance or about finding a temporary job.

I am not sure I am doing the right thing.  I don't want to regret leaving...

Looking back over my life,  I have made some 180's BUT I have few regrets.

Last July, I decided to let someone slice open my stomach.  I couldn't see myself doing it, but somehow I did.
And last November, I couldn't see myself breaking up with my boyfriend of almost three years.  I did it.  The break up lasted two months and now he is my husband.

Ideas for Projects

1.  I need to make some grammar worksheets.  I am thinking of making a simple commas and semicolons work sheet.
2.  There/Their/They're, It's and Its
There are some to other ideas, but my head is fuzzy like a peach right now.

Current Projects

I have three projects I am working on:
1. Leap Year (I am almost done.  I need to add graphics, a sample page and post it on teachers pay teachers.  I also saw this documents page when I was looking for stuff for work.  I could also sell it on LuLu.  So we will see.  I could also do a marketing blast in ATL.

I don't know.

2.  Grammar book-  I need to make an answer key for this.  I need to buy the program to turn it into a PDF.

3.  The Iliad.  I need to finish book 1 and I need to write the answers to book one.  I can market this to 10th grade teachers.

4.  I need to finish all of my stories for my short stories for high school and middle school students.

Marketing Strategy

I need to get a following.  I am thinking about giving teachers my free grammar book and asking them to like my facebook page.

I am also thinking about advertising with a homeshool newsletter of something.  I need some help with marketing.  I heard pinterest was good for markety...

Production Strategies

My main strategy right now is to produce a lot of stuff.  Like, if I can produce 500 items this year.  I am going to look through some stuff that I give away for free and tweak it.  Hello!!  The gravy train stops here.

I have this crazy dream

I want to start an educational publishing company.  I want to make 350,000 a year... enough to hire my sister and enough to contract illustrators and marketing people.  Enough to hire my mom.

This is my dream as I sit here tonight...completely stressed out.  Grades are due tomorrow and I HATE grades.  Everyone, the kids, their parents, they get so serious about grades and I am like I wish I could just make some grades up so everybody could be happy.

I am sooooooooooooo tired of teaching.  And I feel like I am being ungrateful because I have a job.  But I HAAAAATE this job.  It is like I am in an abusive relationship.  There are some "good" parts, but my mind is so warped.

I spent hours upon hours putting in grades and checking assignments.  I had to take a sick day so I could catch up on work.  I am still not done.  ARGHHH!!!  I went to Chick Filet today and on my way there I just howled and cried.

I have some student who are just MEAN and the sight of them stresses me out.  It makes my chest hurt.  I get so tired of dealing with them day in and day out. 

I am sooooooo tired of being in charge of classrooms full of teenagers.  I feel like someone left a crying baby in my lap and I can't leave.  If feel so trapped, like I am in a fish tank and I want to swim in the ocean.

I wish my husband believed in my dream and would let me quit.  I know he thinks its just a pipe dream.

I keep thinking about all of the hours I dedicated to this job today.  What if I had dedicated it to my company.  ARGHHHHH.  SCREAM!!!